Thursday, November 6, 2008

Why Am I here? What am I doing here?

Why Am I here? What am I doing here? ; is the dilemma I am living through.

Striving hard to find a solution, trying to understand what I aspire.

Life is running out of my hands, so fast; everyone is running for what they want, or what they think they want; sometimes not even knowing what they are running for.

Emotions are being crushed, for the race everyone is running in.

I didn’t want to be part of this race; I just want to nurture emotions, live them through my heart, living through every moment.

Making every moment a memory so deeply engraved in heart... But this seems like a fairy tale as if nothing of this is coming true, as if the dreams I am trying to live through will get shattered the moment I will open my eyes.

Still unable to answer the dilemma in my heart; still unable to answer why i am part of this race when i really never wanted to be.

Perhaps I am just living through my destiny. Perhaps I am just trying to find what life has in store for me. Perhaps I am just keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best to happen.

Conflict

I am living in a world of conflict!!! Or am I just hallucinating!!!

Fighting within me, trying to live still trying to die;

Life is so simple at times and still so complicated.

Is it moving or making me drag through?

Can you hear me? Is the question my soul is asking my conscience continuously.

I don’t know the answer, I really don’t know.

Can I hear my soul?

I just let it blabber, let it speak and go unheard,

Or I just shut it up, and let happen what is happening.

I forget what I want and just move ahead with everyone; killing myself, sacrificing the sanctity of my soul.

Is this life or is this way the life moves on?

I don’t know, I really don’t know the answer.

Or rather I should say, perhaps I am running away from facing the answer.

Perhaps the answer lies within me, but I don’t have the courage to face the answer.